Ever wonder if there is such a thing as an infinite loop? A void in space and time, wherein you get to do things over and over agian until it kills you? Well, kanina, narealize ko i was in an infinite loop for so long, until God showed me the right path kanina…

Let me share what happened today…

There is this guy, a client of ours, which backed out at the last minute for whatever reason. Di ko na matandaan kung ako may problema nun or sya. But bottomline is, nag backout itong si client sa proposal. So ok lng. then after some time, lagi nya ko ni memesage sa ym… Nagpapatulong sya sa wordpress. I think he started messaging me for the past 3 months, and ako, aaminin ko, di ko pinapansin. Kahit nung magvow ako na tutulong sa lhat ng magpaptulong sakin, di ko padin sya pinapansin.. Kasi parang nasa isip ko, what would be my gain with this? Pangit mang aminin, typical na utak ng tao yan naun – their benefits and gains, and sad to say, isa po ako dun mga kaibigan,..

then something changed my heart kanina. Para bang nakonsensya ako. Then, you know what I did? I talked to the Lord. I asked for guidance and wisdom. And akalain mo, sumakto ung verse na nakita ko sa our daily bread kanina.. 

Proverbs 18:1 An unfriendly person pursues selfish ends and against all sound judgment starts quarrels.

Proverbs 18:3 When wickedness comes, so does contempt, and with shame comes reproach.

Proverbs 18:11 The wealth of the rich is their fortified city; they imagine it a wall too high to scale.

Provebs 18:14 The human spirit can endure in sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear?

Let me explain what I felt and understood kanina…

Sa Proverbs 18:1, tinamaan ako. Parang sinabi ni Lord sakin, are you that guy? Ung walang kaibigan kasi palagi ka naghahanap ng kapalit or may gain ka? I told Lord, No, i am not that guy. Ayoko at hindi ako ganun. I am not a selfish dude that seeks benefits and gains from friends. Kaya isa to sa nagtulak sakin kanina. Grabe confronted ako ni Lord.

Sa Proverbs 18:3 sinasabi naman sakin na isang sign ng wickedness ang pagtanggi sa nanghihingi ng tulong. I vowed, but still I answer to myself, not to Him. Kaya un…

Sa Proverbs 18:11 sinabi sakin, why would your gain matter? Is money all you want? I thought you wanted to help? Are you helping? Yan ung mga katagang paulit ulit na sinabi sakin..

And sa Provebs 18:14, well, ayoko na umabot ako sa point na manhid na ung heart ko para sa pagtulong sa ibang tao. 

I am ashamed sa mga actions ko sa guy na to but I AM HAPPY that God made me an instrument of a happiness para sa isang tao. Nung natapos ko sya tulungan, grabe, ang sarap ng feeling, as in ung heart ko bigla natuwa. I am not bragging kasi I know dapat ginawa ko na to matagal na, but still, ung advice from God, then ung events that happened, natuwa ako, kasi nakapagpasaya ako ng tao kahit papano. And to that guy, im so sorry if you waited for so long, I have been selfish before. Sorry talaga. 

Ever wonder if there is such a thing as an infinite loop? A void in space and time, wherein you get to do things over and over agian until it kills you? I think, when God tells you something, you should do it. Kasi kahit anong iwas mo, babalik at babalik yung pinapadala nya sayo hanggat matutunan mo na harapin and bigyang pagpapahalaga ung mga utos nya.

Now I learned my lesson. i dont want to be stuck again in that loophole. Ayoko na. We should do what the Lord tells us to do, immediately. Kasi grabe, ung happiness mararamdaman mo talaga. As in!

God bless!