I have been confused from some time, thinking if I may have done the right thing or the wrong thing.. I avoided people that gave me headaches for quite some time. Then just yesterday, those people came and askedfor my help..Then suddenly, all those memories came over me and the feeling of avoiding them again filled my heart.

I was saddened by the state of my heart. I know that what I felt is what I CHOOSE to feel. I asked myself ‘What happened to me? What hapenned to Please Disturb Me?’… I was devastated because I was on the tip of the iceberg. Then I asked God for guidance… I told God, “Lord, what should I do? I know that I should help them but they did something to me a long time ago. It is really hard to do the right thing. I ask, please just tell me what to do so I will surely obey.”<that in=“” tagalog=“”>… </that>

Then I read a verse in the scripture… it is in Eph 6:10-17 " Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.“

It was then that I realized what I should do… I realized that the enemy has thrown a large amount of attackin my heart that I failed to repel it. It devoured me and made me completely vulnerable. But reading verse 17, I knew already what I should do. I will take that helmet and sword and SWING IT AGAINST the enemy. Well, not literally atleast, but you get my point. I should take that negative feeling on and defeat it within myself. And surely girls and boys, I won. I am ready to forgive and forget and I am ready to help. ^^,.

As I stated the title, "choice ko knina”, this is it. I chose to battle the negative spirit within me. And hopefully, this will strengthen my heart for upcoming chalenges (including our conquest). 

Sometimes, it is best to ask guidance from God and from His word, even though deep in your heart, you already know what to do. This will keep you from avoiding the things you know you SHOULD do. Let God speak unto you and you will surely obey. ^^,. Read His word!! Meditate on it day and night! ^^,.

Good NIght!!