There was a time in my life, actually last week, wherein I was presented by the plan of the work that I would do for my company. As i rummaged through the pile of my puny little brain, I felt…afraid. I felt fear and doubt in my heart. I thought can I do this? I have never done this big and thinking of the things that I would be using which im really not really familiar, added to that fear in my heart. Natakot ako in short. Parang di ko kakayanin. At hindi ako nakatulog kakaisip dun…

Tapos nakaktuwa, I asked God guidance and advice kung pano gagawin ko. Not with the job handed to me, but to my heart. Natatakot kasi and may doubt. Then I opened the Bible and there it was…

1 Kings 19:1-9

Now Ahab told Jezebel everything Elijah had done and how he had killed all the prophets with the sword. So Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah to say, “May the gods deal with me, be it ever so severely, if by this time tomorrow I do not make your life like that of one of them.”

Elijah was afraid and ran for his life. When he came to Beersheba in Judah, he left his servant there, while he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it andprayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep.

All at once an angel touched him and said, “Get up and eat.”  He looked around, and there by his head was some bread baked over hot coals, and a jar of water. He ate and drank and then lay down again.

The angel of the Lord came back a second time and touched him and said, “Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you.” So he got up and ate and drank. Strengthened by that food, he traveled forty days and forty nights until he reached Horeb, the mountain of God. There he went into a cave and spent the night.

To give you a short background, Elijah was one of the last prophets of the Lord nung mga panahong un. Tapos hinuhunting sila isa isa para madeds. Strong as he was in the Lord, Elijah ran and felt fear. Tapos hiniling nya kay Lord na kunin na lang sya kasi pagod na daw sya. 

At some point, I was like Elijah. My faith’s not that strong as Elijah but I know my faith is firm in Him. Pero nag doubt ako nung nakita ko ung work ko. Oo, aminin na natin, kahit na natakot tayo at nagka duda sa sarili, parang nagduda na din tayo kay Lord. E sino pa bang gumawa sayo at sino pa bang aalalay sayo?  Sabi nga ni Lord “I will never leave you nor forsake you”, so why doubt?

I understood from the verse and the passage what God’s advice has been. Never in my life have I been let down by the Lord. Walang oras na pinabayaan nya ko. Simula nung pumasok ako sa company, I was under His guidance and under His light and ung mga tasks na binigay sakin were really hard and frustrating, kasi I have zero idea on what I was doing. Pero God gave me wisdom and strength para maendure ung hardships and ung mga kalituhan sa job para ma sustain ko ung family ko. God would know if you really are tired and He wont let you fall. Palagi ka nyang sasagutin at sasaluhin.

Words cant simply describe how I feel right now toward the Lord, pero praises to you oh God. Now, I feel confident and unafraid. Kasi alam ko si God ang nasa likod ko. 

=) God Bless!!